I had one of those angry dreams this morning that I have from time to time. I was with my mother somewhere that was close to my daughter's nursery but not in the same house. We had the video monitor so we could see that she was waking up for her nap. I had something quick to do before I went to get her but my mother beat me to it and by the time I got to her my mother had changed Lizzie's clothing and somehow got her back to sleep. I said that she needed to wake up because it was 5 pm and my mom disagreed with me. That's when I let loose. I just lost it. I screamed at her about how I knew to take care of my daughter better than she did and so on and so forth. It was a very angry dream.
I think the dream comes from my being away from home and my Mom helping out with taking care of my daughter. I must have some deep down insecurities.
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I had similar issues with angry dreams after my son was born. I think because it was such a struggle to conceive him I always felt like my hold on him was tenuous. It took at least 2 years before I really started to trust that I was a good enough mom that no one would take him away from me. I don't know, maybe that sounds crazy.
I hate angry dreams... you wake still angry!
I was just reading your time line, came from ICLW, and I just have to say CONGRATULATIONS!!! What a long journey! I'm very happy for you!
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